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Q. Who was I fooling? A. Me. I was only fooling myself.

I felt triumphant as I walked out of SNAP Fitness with my white key card dangling from the bright red lanyard. I’d taken a step forward. I went from just HIIT to just the elliptical to weights and cardio to just weights. I was doing a good job, feeling hella strong. Still, my shirts and pants got tighter. My face got fuller. The scale and circumference of my waist increased. I bought newer clothing in larger sizes and pledged to continue to “go hard” in the gym. Something wasn’t right though. Even in all that, my diet was still off considerably.

You ever do this? Think you can literally outrun a horrible diet? I did. And I was only fooling myself. I sure as hell wasn’t fooling my waist line. Or my favorite dress I could no longer fit. Or those jeans I had to box up. Or the camera.  Each one knew what I didn’t know.

ME to ME: I’m good. I can still fit this medium top I bought 6 months ago.
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I had to clean up my diet.

I tried to do this by simply vowing to buy better food, but truth be told, we DO buy really good food when we grocery shop. Mostly seafood and chicken (but we NEED that bacon, #sorrynotsorry), fruits, and veggies, with hardly any packaged foods, gallons of water, etc. It’s not how we grocery shop that gets us into trouble. It’s the compulsive snack food shopping.

I’m not kidding when I say it’s compulsive. Whatchu know about going to McDonald’s for a 3 pack of cookies (480 calories and 45 grams of sugar) and hot fudge sundae (340 calories and 48 grams of sugar) at midnight? Or running to the nearest gas station to grab a 20 oz bottle of Coke (240 calories and 65 grams of sugar) and 4 pack of Twix (440 calories, 44 grams of sugar, 20 grams of fat)? Or eating a pack of Oreos in 3 days by yourself (2,730 calories, 253 grams of sugar)? I can tell you I know a lot about it. I have done it dozens of times. And I’m not even counting my love affair with Big Zax Snack Meals, Classic Chicken Sandwich Meals from BK or that Wendy’s 4 for 4 when cravings for salt and ketchup high fructose corn sugar crank up.

I’d eat the BEST breakfast and the BEST lunch and then by the end of the day “reward” myself with a snack or fast food because “what could it hurt, right?” Or a quick late night trip because “it’s not a big deal!”

Before we go any further, I want you to take a glance at the nutrition information I put next to my favorite snacks. 45 grams of sugar? 65 grams of sugar? 253 grams of sugar in 3 days?? And from ONE food item? Am I insane? Am I TRYING to get Type 2 Diabetes? Apparently so. Did you know the suggested added sugar intake for women is only 25 grams? I did! This didn’t stop me from literally eating bags of sugar every week. #SendHelp

Daily Sugar Limit- 9 teaspoons for men, 6 teaspoons for women
Glo note: I was eating over 10 times this on a regular basis. Why???

Did you also know high sugar intake leads to belly fat? I knew this too! Even with all this knowledge, I managed to fool myself into thinking I could “work off” all the trash I was eating. smh…it’s actually kinda funny.

Look, I’m all about being body positive and loving the skin you’re in and all that jazz, but I’m also about not spending money on new clothes just because I’m not making good food choices. Plus, my old clothes are kinda cute and I’d like to wear them again! So yeah, when I break my juice fast tomorrow, you can bet I’m going to be more cautious about how I treat myself in terms of how I eat. It’s imperative, both physically and mentally.

 

 

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Cute dresses…

I opened up the purple, plastic box sitting next to the TV stand in my bedroom. Digging through it I found shirts, dresses, pants, all nestled away because they no longer fit. I pulled out one of my favorite, a sleeveless, A-line dress with royal blue, navy, and white designs. I LOVE this dress. I laid it on the bed and piled atop other cute, formerly worn dresses and skirts.

A cream and black, horizontal striped skirt (Size 8 *ha*), a black and white cocktail dress, a fun, multi-colored cap sleeved dress (with pockets!), a heather gray and white striped dress with a shiny pewter colored belt, all unworn because I’ve grown out of them. What a waste. Seriously.

Since April 2013, I have gained 30 pounds and 3 dress sizes. Only 7.5 lbs a year, but it adds up over time! I went from pushing into a size 10, but still being able to fit into some of my 8 bottoms to before juicing 11 days ago, practically pushing into a size 14 (yes, my 12s were getting snug. This is why it was imperative for me to get my weight and eating under control.

I held the sleeveless, A-line dress with royal blue, navy, and white designs up for inspection. I can see where I’ve almost ruined it by trying to squeeze my body into it far after it truly stopped fitting. But again, it’s one of my favorites, so I was foolish and perhaps a little desperate! I knew I had some progress, so I tried it on. To my surprise, it fit again. Not perfectly, but there was definitely a difference since the last time I wore it. I looked in the mirror and decided to wear it.

That was day 6.

Today on day 11, I’m proud to say I weigh 165.8 lbs (down from 177.2 lbs) and 1.5 inches around my waist. I started at 36.5 inches and now I’m at 35 inches. Juicing was meant to jump start cleaner eating, so I can shrink my waist. I’d love to get it down to 31 inches. I’m not really worried about my weight as much as I am about how my clothing fits. I think continued weight training will help with this. I’m excited to see my progress by the time I hit the big THREE-FIVE, but I have to keep pushing.
Today’s juice recipe is below.

  • 4 small apples and 1 medium apple
  • 4 cucumbers
  • 2 lemons
  • 8 kale leaves
  • 1 slice of pineapple
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I haven’t chewed food in over 48 hours. #SendHelp #WhyAmIDoingThis

I haven’t chewed food since Sunday night around 10 p.m. I promise I’m not crazy.

The idea of juicing has been on my mind off and on ever since I watched Joe share the amazing health benefits in Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. It has taken years to pull the trigger because juicing seemed too difficult and too extreme. I wasn’t ready to commit. Today, I am 30 pounds heavier and indulging in  horrible eating habits. This in mind AND staring squarely in the face of age 35, juicing doesn’t seem so crazy. It actually seems practical, necessary even.

There is something about abstaining from chewing food that makes one contemplative. Perhaps this is why fasting is a popular religious exercise. Fasting requires discipline, self-control, and time management skills. These qualities are the precise reasons I’m doing this. When I choose the 4 for $4 menu at Wendy’s instead of eating the grilled chicken and veggies I have cooked at home, I’m showing a lack of discipline. When I eat that extra slice of pizza when I’m already full, that’s a lack of self-control.  When I buy food to cook, but make no time to prepare it, leading to the “need” grab fast food, I’m not exercising my time management skills.

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Glo note: Why is this so tasty?

During these 14 days  4 days 14 days, I hope to sharpen my discipline, self-control, and time management skills. So far, so good! Since Monday, I have successfully made my juices, avoided impulse eating, and passed up yummy food at a retirement ceremony.

The general idea is if I can pass on Reese’s cups, chicken tenders, bacon, Santita’s, and deep dish pepperoni pizza now, I will be able to do the same when I begin chewing my food again. Practice control now, so I can practice it later. I also hope a break from packaged foods, sugary drinks, and deep fried foods will curb my taste for those foods. Only time will tell…

As I close out day three, the biggest lesson I have learned is that I can do it. And I hope to prove it again tomorrow and the next day and the next day. In juicing, I’m doing something I never thought I would do because I didn’t think I could do it. Each day I follow through I think to myself, “Glo…you can do this.” And that thought doesn’t begin and end with juicing.

I hope this positive self talk echoes in my mind in as many situations as possible.

“Glo…you CAN do this.” 

Yes, yes I can.

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Y’all, my waist is 35 inches. #WhyThough

I haven’t thought about my waist measurement in years. YEARS. Perhaps since the my wedding in 2008? I don’t know. All I know is that I’m suffering from increasingly noticeable booty do and finally bit the bullet and pulled out the tape. Thirty-five inches. My waist in 35 inches.

How did I get here?

The overarching theme of this year is about keeping it real with myself and taking deliberate action to solve anything I see that needs fixing. So to “keep it real,” the most likely culprit is my natural proclivity towards eating like a 10 year old whose parents have given her permission to eat whatever her heart desires. Pizza, Zaxby’s, Coca Cola. Twix Bars. McDonald’s 3 for $1 cookies ($1.27 with tax, THANKYOUVERYMUCH!). French Fries (make it a large). More Coca Cola.

I’m 5’6 and 180lbs with a BMI in the “obesity” range. My weight shows up in my tummy and face. I have got to lose weight!

Now those who have seen me may be rolling their eyes right now. The typical response I get when I mention my need to lose weight includes eye rolling and deep sighs. I think this is because I carry the weight a bit differently, I wear clothing that hides  used to hide my mid section, and because they haven’t seen me in my birthday suit (and they shouldn’t…that would be weird).

What are the implications?

I’m a natural researcher. I like to know stuff. Lots of stuff. As much stuff as possible. Naturally, I hopped on the Google machine to find information on what a 35 inch waist means.

  1. My 35 inch waist puts me at risk for obesity related diseases.
  2. I’m overweight and overfat (due to my waist size and BMI), but even thin and “average sized” people can be overfat.

This is really scary considering my family history with diabetes and heart disease. I can’t hit age 35 with a 35 inch waist. I’ve gotta start eating like an adult and treating myself better!

Since January, I have tried to visit the gym at least 4 times a week.  I took a break during our ordeal, but have been back at for the last 4 – 5 weeks. I am doing a mix of weights and cardio with the hopes of boosting my metabolism and burning fat. I have to admit it’s getting discouraging, but I have to keep in mind that it took me years to gain the weight and that I can’t expect to take it back off after a few months of gym time.

As a bit of disclosure, I’m considering doing a full Reboot…more on the reasons why later in a later post. Wish me luck!